Perfect Lies

You said this before,
that you dont know how to read chinese,
so you cannot read my blog,
so you couldn't find out if i wrote some bad things about you,
That's why, i'm writing in english now..
For the second time but the first time for you..

I miss you..
I miss you a lot..
I'm leaving soon..
And, I'm confused..
Should I hold on to you, or should I let go..
I'm seriously confused about this,
when I feel like you don't really care about how I feel towards you,
you just take me as your friend, and a friend who always need you to comfort herself..
What I'm gonna do about my feelings towards you, when I'm so confused and scared...

I prayed,
I pray everyday to God that somedays you will let me know how you feel about me,
but i know it wont works,
cause you don't fall in love easily..

I just hope this is not a mistake,
that I fall for you,
that I fall for you again before I leave..

I pray that somedays,
I'll have the braveness to tell you that,
"I like you.."